Crossroads?

Have you ever been in a situation where you were trying to balance two different aspects of your life, and both suddenly got much more demanding at the same time? We all try to maintain balance in our lives. When one task requires more attention, we temporarily neglect other tasks in order to compensate. That plan works fairly well, as long as we always are able to return to that null point where everything is balanced. But...what do you do when multiple tasks demand your full attention? Something eventually has to give.

As I mentioned in my previous post, I've been pushed to get started taking classes in Biblical education, so I did it. I signed up for some online courses, which are scheduled to begin this weekend. I figured I had the time, since work has been fairly undemanding lately. THEN... Yesterday, the other shoe dropped. I was selected to lead a new development project at work. That would be fine, except for the fact that I have very little knowledge about the tools I'm required to use for this project.

Saying "no" to this project was not an option. The whole thing was dumped in my lap, and I was told that I have three months to have a working product ready to go. There are a total of two people on this team, including myself, and neither of us has any experience doing what we're now being required to do. It's a classic make-or-break scenario; at the end of three months, I'm either going to somehow have grand success, or I'm most likely going to be jobless. Let's not forget that I'm also going to be taking classes while all this is going on!

While I recognize that God is stretching me to enhance my ability to serve, I also cannot help but wonder if I'm being led to a crossroads in life. After all, I can continue down two paths for only so long before I'm forced to choose between one or the other. (I never was much good at doing the splits, so my legs don't stretch that far apart!) I'll try to straddle both avenues for as long as I can, but when or if the Lord decides it's time for me to choose only one road, I pray that I will be able to follow His lead and trust Him completely.

Father, thank You for this day's trials. May You use them to mold and shape me into the servant You would have me to be. Please give me the wisdom to know how best to please you with my choices, and the courage to follow through with each new decision that is made. I ask this in Jesus' name, that You may be glorified in the doing. Amen.

Sometimes, I even wonder if it would be better if God took the choice out of my hands completely, but prayers like that can be dangerous.

"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." - Proverbs 3:5-6

"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." - Philippians 4:13